Monday, June 17, 2019

Sick, missing, and tired

I am still sick. I will likely take a sick day from work today. Currently, my nose is stuffed up, I'm tired, and I have a slight cough.

Being sick makes me think more about my guy breaking up with me. I miss what we had. I don't miss being hurt, as I'm already there.

He just sent me a video to watch. In his own way, he misses me. It makes me even more upset that he is perfectly fine carrying on. I can't do that. I need time to grieve. He isn't in tune with his emotions as much as I am. I wear my heart on my sleeve.

Although I have moments of sadness, I cannot sob in despair like I did the two previous times that he broke up with me. It's that inner strength this time that demands being treated better. It is his loss. I simply need to move on. It will happen with time.

I took naps throughout the day on Sunday. I felt better after each nap, but I am tired. I believe that I have earned a sick day to shake this cold off and heal from this breakup.

Sunday, June 16, 2019

Rocketman, affection, and a cold

On Saturday, I went to see Rocketman at long last at the theatre. I loved it. I love movies about music and the lives of rock stars, both fictional and fact.

At one point in the movie, Elton John is on the phone with his mom, coming out as a gay man. She says to him that she knows, "You'll never be loved properly." It was a sad moment on how removed his parents were at dishing out affection.

It made me a bit sad that I don't have a man to dish out affection these days. I also miss the companionship. They are minor for me right now, as I need time to heal emotionally after this breakup. I decided to buy a book on healing after a relationship ends. Although I am doing well under the circumstances, I still have moments of sadness when memories flood in. Having a resource to get me through it doesn't hurt.

I have a slight cough and a stuffed up nose. I am on cold medication and am drinking a lot of fluids. I hope that the extra rest that I'm getting this weekend will help.

Saturday, June 15, 2019

Coming down with a cold, having fond memories, and seeing a movie

The good news is that the workweek is over. My team got our software release work done ahead of schedule.

The bad news? I feel like I'm coming down with a cold. My nose is running and stuffy. I also have a slight sore throat. Ugh!

I took a nap for nearly an hour. It happened two hours ago. It's not a normal thing for me. I am hoping that some extra hours of sleep will kick my cold to the curb.

Now that things are less hectic, my guy not being the love of my life anymore has set in. I think of the fond memories that we have shared, but am also annoyed at how he decided to call it quits. I truly deserved a lot better.

I am hoping to go see a movie later on today. I have amassed a ton of points that it's time to splurge. I also have a movie gift card to use. I need some time for me and perhaps a hot dog.

Friday, June 14, 2019

Raptors win! Raptors are the NBA 2019 champions!

Oh, my gosh! The Raptors did it! They won and are the champions in the NBA for 2019!

Yay! We the north.

Thursday, June 13, 2019

St. Louis Blues are Stanley Cup champions! Here's to beer and Gloria!

The St. Louis Blues have won the Stanley Cup. Yay!

I have had a fun arrangement with my manager. When the Blues win a playoff hockey game, he owes me a beer. He has already bought me one beer. I have three more beers coming my way.

As for me, I promised to play Laura Branigan's song, Gloria. It's the Blues song that's played when the team wins. Deal!

Wednesday, June 12, 2019

Startled dreaming about my ex and being taken for granted at work

After a fairly long day working from home, I took a nap. I had been up since 06:45.

I had a dream about my guy kissing me on the lips and holding me like he used to. I woke up startled. I was in a slight panic.

It was a dream. I was relieved.

At first, I thought that the dream signalled that I missed him in my life. It wasn't that. I miss being affectionate with someone who will reciprocate. These days, I hug my stuffed purple sheep and penguin. It's not the same, but I am comforted by them.

Work continues to be stressful. I realize that I have some colleagues who take me for granted. I actually shut a person down because he was whining over a change that I had made to correct the version syntax that he got wrong. Apparently, I am supposed to let the world know about his mistake. He found it a pain to send everyone a revised hyperlink. I told him that my team is busy building documentation builds and pushing out a major release, which finally silenced him. He isn't a quarter as busy as I am.

My incompetent member continues to show me that she is a horrible listener and can't do tasks on her own. I don't understand why I end up with idiots on my team.

Tuesday, June 11, 2019

Short post for a busy week

It's a busy week at work. Last week was highly stressful dealing with yet another incompetent person on my team. I will need a post to describe that fiasco.

I have finally calmed down about the situation. I am so glad. It was highly frustrating dealing with her.

She has finally realized that she has damaged our rapport. I no longer trust her to independently do her work. She messed up and she knows it. I'll elaborate in a future post.

I am working from home on Tuesday. Sadly, I have an early morning conference call. I am in the office for the remainder of this week. It's not bad, but I would rather be sleeping in.

Monday, June 10, 2019

Stronger - then and now

When Kelly Clarkson's song, Stronger, came out back in 2011, it became my anthem on multiple levels.

I was dealing with a colleague who was incompetent. It seems to still be the trend at my workplace these days. This guy was originally my manager. He had issues doing his job. Sleeping on the job will do that. Eventually, he made enemies with everyone, including me, and decided to leave the company.

I was going a back issue during this ordeal. I ended up getting back surgery to remove a disk that was causing a ton of numbness and pressure down my right leg. My guy and I became a couple just before I had surgery. Stronger became my song to get better and be my best self.

Frankly, I stopped tearing up a week ago. I was driving home from work and Stronger came on the radio. The lyrics hit me. It's okay to be sleep alone. The bed does feel warmer. It doesn't mean that I am over because you're gone.

It's trying to find the person that I was before the relationship. I have found her. I am hopefully wiser after this relationship, but I am strong and I will be okay.

In a past post, I had mentioned that I deserve better. I do, both in a romantic relationship and in a friendship. I am perfectly fine walking away from my friendship with him. I don't need to deal with his indecisiveness.

Last Friday, we had lunch together. There were a couple of hints that he still has feelings for me, but I didn't act on them.
"I have always loved your purple nail polish," he said.
"It's not the same colour. The one that you are referring to is long gone. I used the bottle up," I replied.
As we walked out of the restaurant, he touched my lower back. He hasn't done that in ages. I am thinking that it is habit more than anything.

When we got to the office, I simply said, "See you whenever," and walked away. It's exactly how I feel. I am not waiting for you. I don't want us to get back together. It's over. I am moving on and seeking someone who loves and respects me.

As for diving into a relationship, I'm not ready yet. I am going to enjoy some time to myself. If something happens, I'll figure it out then. Right now, I can't handle being in a relationship.

Thursday, June 06, 2019

The breakup - for the third and likely final time

It has been well over a week. I needed some time to think about what had happened. The problem is that I have been pretty active and busy that I haven't had a chance to grieve.

My guy decided to call it quits. Quits means romantically. He wants to remain friends.

We have been together for years. For me, the withdrawal symptoms of not being affectionate towards someone have been tough.

I am oddly taking this breakup well. In the past, when he previously broke my heart twice, I was devastated each time. I sobbed and cried.

This one still hurts. I tear up now and again. I haven't gone into full-fledge sobbing or a good cry, though. Perhaps he has changed. Perhaps I have, too.

I am more active now than I was the last two times that he broke my heart. I go out of various meetups. I am working on blog posts here and my side projects. Work has kept me busy.

I am only sad at night when I am not on the move. I sit on my bed, look at my purple sheep named Woolly, and go back to the exact moment when my guy gave Woolly to me.

I don't have that feeling of getting rid of all his stuff. I hug my purple plush sheep and I'm good. He is always smiling back at me.

In the past, I had to sever any relationship after we broke up. Part of me still wants to, as it has aleays been easier for me to heal. There were recent periods when I would say hi in a text message to him and I wouldn't get a thing. He would not communicate with me for weeks. I knew that something was up.

I said to him that if we were to be friends, I need better communication. Otherwise, I am perfectly find saying goodbye to him forever. He said that it wouldn't happen. In this regard, as much as he is my best friend, he actually needs my friendship more than I do of his. I will give it a shot. If I hate what we have, I will walk away. I have no regrets.

He didn't break up with me because he found someone new. He just has other side projects going on that love and sex have taken a backseat. I have always been accommodating to his needs. For me, I know that I deserve better. I am willing to find it with someone out there when I am ready.

In the meantime, I look forward to spending time with a good friend this weekend. Work is driving me crazy. My guy and I have had lunch a handful of times over the last 1.5 weeks. We have been good.

He asked me if I wanted a hug last Friday. We hugged. I needed it. It felt different, but it felt comforting.

Kelly Clarkson's song, Stronger, got me out of moments of sadness earlier this week. I will explain more in another post.

I am okay. It is a life shift. I'm not even sure if I can call him my guy here. I will probably need to think of a better name.

Tuesday, June 04, 2019

My barista and Stronger

I have a cheerful story to share. It happened to me on Monday evening. I will back up a bit.

On Saturday, I visited my local cafe. I went through the drive-thru and chatted with one barista who has always been kind to me. I asked whether he had the weekend off. He did, except that he was representing this cafe in a barista competition. Wow! He is the best in this city. I was impressed!

I wished him good luck. He suggested that I follow this cafe on Instagram. I did.

I found out late on Sunday night that this barista won the entire competition! I was so happy and proud of him.

On Monday evening, I went through the drive-thru of this cafe to pick up my beverage and he was there.
"Congratulations!" I exclaimed, which made him happy.
"Thank you so much!" he said, humbly.
"Hey, she found out pretty fast," said his colleague.
We had a decent chat about his experience. I am so happy that he got such a well-deserved award. I am glad that I deal with the best.

As for me, Monday was a crazy day at work, which led to my forgetting to attend a dinner. I thought that it was on Tuesday. Oops! Instead, I got a hot dog from Costco and a chocolate sundae from McDonald's.

I am more upbeat today, thanks to listening to Kelly Clarkson's "Stronger." I will elaborate more on what has happened over the past week shortly.

Thursday, May 30, 2019

Sorting out things - taking a blogging break

I am going through a bit of a rough patch right now. I am well under the circumstances. I'm sorting out a few things, so I'll be taking a bit of a break here.

Once I have sorted out things, I'll share them with you. I do need an outlet and my blog has always been it. It's difficult to write down how I feel when there are some loose ends.

Tuesday, May 28, 2019

Some things never change with my guy

My guy is at the office for the next two weeks. It means that I get to see him more often.

On Monday, he picked me up in his stick-shift 70's car. It was my first time seeing and riding in it. The muffler was loud.

After lunch, I teased him, as usual.
"Do you know where you parked?" I asked him.
"Over there," he said, pointing at the general vicinity of the parking lot.
"Some things never change," I pointed out.
"Yes, for sure," he replied.
"Can I drive your car?" I asked him.
"Nope. Some things never change," he smiled.
It was nice spending a bit of time with him.

Monday, May 27, 2019

7 Habits of Highly Effective people and spanking

The weekend went flying by. I am pleased that I got to sleep in.

This week, I get to go back to my regularly scheduled program of working from home for a couple of days. Here's hoping that I can get some quiet work done.

My guy is teaching a course based on The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People, written by Franklin Covey. I read this book in my mid-twenties. It's nice that my guy is applying it to engineering and the Information Technology fields.

We had a fun talk the other day about it:
"Do you think you could apply it to spanking me?" I asked him.
"Sure. The first habit is being proactive. I'd be proactive spanking you daily," he said.
"That sounds good. Habit two is beginning with the end in mind. You begin spanking my end," I said.
"Yes, that's for sure," he laughed.
I like when we are funny.

Sunday, May 26, 2019

Raptors advance to the finals!

The Toronto Raptors did it! The team is heading to the NBA finals for the first time!


It was an intense, stressful game. The Raptors came from behind and won the game 100 - 94 against the Milwaukee Bucks.

Game six in the 6ix. Finals, here we come! We the North!

Saturday, May 25, 2019

Weekend relief from an annoying colleague

Yay, the weekend is here! Although it was a short workweek for me, it seemed incredibly long.

I have a colleague who joined my team over two months ago. She is apparently supposed to be as experienced as I am, but comes across as being junior and not knowing what she is doing. It's to the point where my astute student has made the same observations and shared them with me.

She has an issue with punctuality. She is supposed to be at work by 9:45 am. She has been getting into work at around 10:30 am. On Friday, it was 11:00 am, as noted by my manager.

Both my manager and I have had a talk about it with her. I saw signs of improvement at first, but we are back to square one. She doesn't seem to be making a decent effort.

Anyway, enough about that issue and the fact that she came over five times to talk to me while I was quietly working with my student.  I am off to bed to enjoy sleeping in.

Happy weekend, everyone!

Friday, May 24, 2019

Two more loan payments to go and I'm done!

I am two payments away from completely paying off a major loan. I am so pleased that I can see the finish line.

I have envisioned reaching this stage for a while, knowing that it's a huge milestone for me. It feels good. I will be able to allocate some money towards savings while continuing to get my credit cards paid off.

Things are looking great. Sticking to a budget has been tough, but it does work with a ton of hard work and support.

Thursday, May 23, 2019

Gloria and the St. Louis Blues

The St. Louis Blues are in the NHL playoff finals. I watched the game the other night and it was a great win.

I found out that whenever the Blues win at home, Laura Branigan's song, Gloria, gets played. She has since passed. However, she shares the same birthday as I do.

For your enjoyment, here's Gloria:


Enjoy! You're welcome. =)

Wednesday, May 22, 2019

Everyone's needs are so important... NOT!

I do not understand why folks at my workplace think that their needs are so important that they need to hunt me down in a room as I am training.

It happened last week with a software tester. The question could have waited. I told him that I was training and that I would have preferred an e-mail. Clearly, I had my student with me in the room that he barged into. Still, he came over and we talked about it, interrupting my class.

Yesterday, it was the peer who recently joined my team. I was training and she came knocking with her questions. She expected me to drop everything. I had to say that she was training, which meant nothing to her. On top of all of it, I told her that she needs to work on her communication skills. Her e-mail was highly confusing and talking to her confuses me even more every single time.

I hope that tomorrow is a better day. I feel like I need to hide away.

Tuesday, May 21, 2019

Leisurely Saturday afternoon until I locked my keys in my car

I had a mixed afternoon on Saturday. It started off great, as I went into a cafe to get a hot chocolate and a cookie. I decided to place both items in my car and pick up some items at a local empanada store.

While waiting for my order at the store, I realized that I didn't have my keys with me. The dread had set in. I had locked my keys in my car.

I went back to my car with my empanadas. Sure enough, I could see my cars sitting on the passenger side.

I used to have CAA, which is the car assistance folks in Canada. Last year, I decided to terminate my membership as my car has roadside assistance.

The catch was that the roadside assistance card was in my purse, which was locked in my car with my keys. Luckily, I had my phone with me. I also had my insurance with my vehicle's identification number on it. However, trying to find the phone number took a few tries.

The first one went to the United States. I realized that when I got a woman with a Spanish accent. She had to transfer me, but she transferred me to another Spanish woman dealing with Lexus cars. I don't have a Lexus. My guy does.

Anyway, the second woman got me a phone number to try for roadside assistance. In the meantime, I found an online form to fill out for the same assistance. I filled out everything, pressed Enter, and got an error to call the phone number. Oh, yay!

Finally, I called the number. You can also get a text message to start the process of outlining your exact location. I did that and all seemed well. However, considering the weird error message that I got, I decided to call back to confirm that the place got it.

Luckily, I spoke with two women who were great. They made sure that I was safe. They let me know that a tow truck guy would be over. This guy managed to unlock my car and help me out roughly an hour later.

I was thankful for all the help. Every decade, I seem to lock my keys in my car. I am glad that I don't do it all the time, but it's good that folks can help me out when I need it.

Monday, May 20, 2019

Happy Victoria Day!

It's Victoria Day here in Canada. It's nice to have a longer weekend.

I have spent it relaxing so far. I have caught up with my sleep. All is well.

Sunday, May 19, 2019

Dreaming of being spanked, and waking up wet and horny

I had a good dream last night. It was so good that after it was done, I woke up briefly.

I dreamt of my guy. He tends to be in my dreams when I miss him a lot.

We were cuddling. He turned me onto my stomach in bed and spanked me across an extremely short pair of shorts. He pulled them down and continued spanking each buttock with his hand. Finally, my panties came down and it was my bare backside being spanked.

I woke up wet, horny, and happy. I had to play with myself before I fell back to sleep.

It was a good dream that will come to reality soon.

Saturday, May 18, 2019

Survived the workweek by napping

I got through this week in one piece. I like my new student. She is bright and highly mature for her age.

I went into work every single day this week. I haven't done that in ages. I do miss working from home, although it was nice to spend more time chatting with various folks at work.

The downside to going into work is getting up early and then needing a nap before my bedtime. I have had a nap a couple of times this week. It's the main reason why I am writing at this hour. I took a nap a couple of hours ago and have slightly more energy.

Okay, I spoke too soon. I'm off to bed.

Friday, May 17, 2019

Napping in my car

I was so exhausted on Thursday night. I was five minutes away from getting home from work. I was so sleepy that I decided to pull into a parking lot and take a nap.

The thirty-minute snooze was helpful. I have been pretty relaxed ever since. I made it home just fine.

I should be able to sleep well tonight, even with squeezing in some nap time.

Thursday, May 16, 2019

Workshop that requires renting a car

I am taking a training course in July. It requires doing a three-day workshop in Montreal. I am looking forward to it.

The problem is a recent change to our corporate travel policy. I should rent a car if it's cheaper than claiming for mileage. Fetching the car from the airport and returning it there is a pain.

Anyway, I'll deal with it later. I am looking at hotels right now. I'm excited!

Wednesday, May 15, 2019

Sleepy and not working from home all week

Sleepy.

I am in the office all week. It's weird not working from home to break up the week.

Sleepy. More later.

Tuesday, May 14, 2019

Back in the training saddle again

Monday was my first day training my new student. All went well, except that her laptop didn't arrive at work on time. We had to get a loaner.

She's fitting in well. I am pleased.

My manager treated her to lunch. I was invited, but had to pay for my own meal. Hey, it could have been much worse.

I am looking forward to the rest of this week.

Monday, May 13, 2019

Aroused by a photo and a text message

It doesn't take much for either my guy or me to get horny.

I sent him a photo of my nails. A friend of mine had given me a purple set of Impress gel nails. I love that you select the size that you need for each nail and stick each gel nail on. He liked the photo so much that he envisioned my hand wrapped around his hard member. He also likes when I touch his bare chest.

As for me, it only took a single text.
Get ready when we meet. I am spanking you hard.
Simple things in life are great.

Sunday, May 12, 2019

Dreaming about my guy and being together

When I miss my guy, I dream about him. It happened to me last night.

I don't recall all the details. I just remember him saying that he loves me and lovingly holding me. I woke up happy and loved.

He's doing well. He's spending a ton of time on a new project. It's like my trying to figure out how new applications work. We simply need to find some time to see each other.

Saturday, May 11, 2019

Training and the weekend

Yay to the weekend!

I have been busy getting ready for training my new student on Monday. It's amazing how my materials get outdated as technology changes. It has only been four months since I last delivered these training materials.

I enjoy training. It's a nice change from my regular work. I just don't like the craziness. That's why I love weekends. They are much needed.

Enjoy your weekend, everyone!

Friday, May 10, 2019

Learning quickly

On Thursday, I realized that I am so determined to learn how to do tasks in a new software application that I end up being incredibly versed in it. I ended up telling a colleague how to do things in it.

I don't feel like I am an expert, but I have figured out how to do tasks that are needed for my everyday work. Most folks would probably give up. I have been fiddling around with it for weeks that I figured out functionality that wasn't in any of the instructional videos. I also couldn't find it in the user guide.

I felt good when I had my breakthrough. I am simply glad that I can use this application for my work, as the old system will be discontinued in a couple of months.

Thursday, May 09, 2019

Side gig

I have a side gig. Or, some would call it a side hussle. It's interesting. It just happened.

For a while, I have been writing reviews on a social app. Someone recently noticed and wants me to do the same thing. What's different is that I get paid for this work. Hey, that's different!

I do the same thing as I've been doing for a few years now. I visit business as the customer that I am. If I'm ordering and eating food, I write about all of that. If I'm getting my car serviced, I write about my experience. I get paid for doing it now.

I got my first payment for my first review yesterday. The extra money comes handy these days. Although my debt situation has improved a ton, I am three loan payments away from paying it off completely. That extra money will go towards even more aggressive payoff of my credit cards.

It's cool. We'll see how things go.

Wednesday, May 08, 2019

Poutine and fries

I went out to fetch some dinner on Tuesday night. I craved poutine, which is a Canadian dish. It's fries, with cheese curds, smothered in gravy. This place puts smoked meat on top.

I have a love-hate relationship with fries. I grew tired of them as a standard side with everything. Burger and fries. Fried chicken and fries. Sandwich with fries. Ugh!

There are some places where I don't mind getting fries. Costco has amazing fries that are lightly coated with batter before they are deep-fried. I like them with gravy. I also love McDonald's fries.

As of late, if I don't like the fries, I need some sauce or condiment to dip them in. It could be curry sauce, ketchup, or basil mayo. Otherwise, I will skip getting fries as a side, and go with either a side salad or onion rings.

Poutine is perfect. I get fries, cheese curds, and gravy. It's the perfect trinity of goodness in my books.

My smoked meat poutine was fabulous. I have been craving it for a while and I'm good now.

Tuesday, May 07, 2019

Do normal colleagues exist?

It was a busy Monday at work. My colleague who joined my team almost two months ago showed odd signs of incompetence.

She has been with the company for a good three years. She completely messed up a procedure and insisted that "everyone" updates these pages the same way as she. I actually had to disprove her. Even my manager got into the conversation.

Weird. I sometimes have to wonder whether there is something different about the way that she is wired. Luckily, I get a break from seeing her for a couple of days. I am working from home. It's a distraction to have her approach me a couple of times an hour when I am in the office.

I miss having normal colleagues.

Monday, May 06, 2019

Missing each other and a sore butt

Another weekend has come and gone. I am unwinding before I'm off to bed.

I miss my guy. I miss seeing his face every day like we did back in January.
"I miss you, too, sweetie. I think about spanking you every day," he said.
"I'd like that. I don't know what it's like to have a sore backside anymore," I replied.
"We can fix that soon," he said.
We'd both like a resolution on this matter!

Sunday, May 05, 2019

Thankful for free food

Saturday was a good day. I drove to an eatery to get free food.

To make a long story short, I won a couple of coupons for two orders of roti. They were from a new restaurant. I had to drive downtown to get my goodies.

I had one butter chicken roti in the restaurant. I brought the other one back home.

The verdict? Yummy. I will need to spice thing up more the next time I am there. I went with mild. I probably need medium. Nevertheless, I am grateful for the free food and look forward to having more yummy food down the road.

Saturday, May 04, 2019

Eye is doing well

On Friday, I had my eye injection. Even though I have been doing eye injections for over a couple of years, I am still not used to getting a needle in my eye.

I am thankful for each injection. I have recovered well from blood in my central vision, which was pretty scary when it happened. My ophthalmologist continues to tell me that I'm doing well. I like it.

Friday, May 03, 2019

Standing up at work for a meeting and being gently pushed

At work on Thursday, our company had an all-employee meeting. It was originally slated to be in our auditorium. I have no idea why the venue changed to a corner of our floor.

We had bigwigs visiting us. There was supposed to be an online feed, but the audio sucked. I walked over there to listen in instead. I was hoping to tune in while eating my lunch, as this meeting started at noon.

There were a ton of people. I ended up standing in a corridor, unable to see anyone.

It helps that I am friendly. It have established a rapport with those whom I work closely with. As of late, I have had to work with a product manager. He looked, saw me, and literally let me know that I could move up in front of him.
"I'm tall. You stand here," he said.
"Thanks," I replied.
He must be 6'4". I'm 5'10" and seem mighty short standing next to him.

It was interesting that he gently pushed me up, touching the back of my shoulder blades with his palms. I have never had anyone do that before.

It worked. I had a good view. I could hear. All was great.

It helps to work with decent people who are polite and care.

Thursday, May 02, 2019

Fossil Sport smartwatch

For quite some time, I have been thinking about upgrading my smartwatch. I have had my eye set on the Fossil Sport for roughly half a year.

A couple of weeks ago, I had a chat with a Fossil staff member at a store. I got to try on this watch. She had a blush-coloured one, which I fell in love with. The problem then was that it's not a cheap watch.

I am glad that I am patient. This week, the watch dropped in price by $105. I went and bought it. I love it!

As usual, any product isn't perfect. This watch does not track the number of hours that I am asleep. It's a limitation of Wear OS more than the watch itself. There is an app, called Sleep, that apparently integrates with Wear OS and ultimately, Google Fit. I will be testing it out.

It has never been a smooth transition for me to change from one smartwatch to another. Besides this minor annoyance, I do love this watch so far.

Wednesday, May 01, 2019

Phallic fried pickle spear

On Tuesday night, I went to a food event. I got the last fried pickle spear.

I typically don't like pickles. However, if you fry them, I apparently like them.

I took a photo of my fried pickle before I devoured it. It reminded me of a penis.


My mind is overactive at times!

Tuesday, April 30, 2019

Coming around and getting a spanking

For years, my manager has deemed me his go-to person for all important tasks. I got annoyed at how I ended up doing all the work and my colleagues just sat around and did little.

I realized why. He trusts me to get the job done. He doesn't have much confidence in the rest of my colleagues. It's a bad sign.

For the last few years, I have told him that I can't be the person who has all the knowledge. It has to be spread around.

Recently, he asked about how to handle the shortage of folks on my team for various reasons. I told him that there should be cross-training across our entire team. My tiny team does everything. The rest of the team has no idea how to do half the tasks that we do.

He liked that idea. He has come around.

This week, he wants our team to write three different proposals. He didn't assign any of these tasks to me. He gave them to three other colleagues. Nice!

I told my guy about this good news.
"It's about time," he said. "You do so much. It's your turn to take a breather."
"Yes, it's nice," I replied.
"Of course, you still need to do what I say. Otherwise, you go over my knee for a hard spanking," he threatened.
"Maybe," I teased.
I like being his bad girl.

Monday, April 29, 2019

Sharp pain from walking fast

On Friday night, I was walking around in a mall and had a sharp pain happen in my left buttock and hip that I haven't felt in a while. The last time I had this pain was the start of sciatic pain decades ago.

I have decided to take it easy all weekend. On Saturday, I felt good until I walked faster while at the drug store and the pain came back. Taking ibuprofen helped. I also slowed down my walking pace. I have been good all weekend ever since.

Here's hoping that it was a fluke and that the issue has gone away. Getting full-blown sciatica isn't fun. It is extremely painful and takes months for the pain to subside.

Sunday, April 28, 2019

Hormones and stress factors

Hormones continue to fascinate me. For years, my menstrual cycle was completely abnormal. I could go a year without getting my period.

It wasn't until I lost sixty pounds that my menstrual cycle became monthly. These days, it's almost predictable to the day, except when there are stress factors.

In the past, if I were doing a major trip where there was a whole lot of last-minute planning, I would miss my period for that month.

Recently, I lost the incompetent colleague and knew about it a day before it happened. I feel that this event caused my period to be delayed.

My two students had their final workday on Friday. It wasn't until Saturday morning when my period came, a week after it should have.

Hormones are sensitive. I don't fully understand how they work, but they fascinate me and I need to live with them.

Saturday, April 27, 2019

Work term, virtual reality, and sleep

It has been a great and memorable few days. My students have officially ended their work term. More on all that later. I am still soaking up everything.

The other night, I went to a virtual reality arcade. It was so much fun! I played Fruit Ninja VR and am hooked!

I'll write more when I'm not sleepy. Enjoy your weekend!

Thursday, April 25, 2019

Students, plaid skirt, and a spanking

I have spent the last hour putting together farewell gifts for my students. Earlier in the day, I went out to get gourmet cookies that they love. I also gave them a mug with chocolates inside.

It has been great having them on board. I will be sad to see them go. They do need to head back to university. They are in a few classes together this upcoming term.

My guy likes thinking about my playing his student.
"I would spank you for every question you got wrong on my exam," he said.
"I like that. You'd spank me no matter what result I got on it," I noted.
"Yes, that's true," he replied.
"We both win. I need to find that plaid short skirt of mine," I replied.
He likes that skirt. He immediately got hard. I was already wet. It's all good.

Wednesday, April 24, 2019

Vaccines and dating criteria

I had my doctor's appointment yesterday. My blood and urine reports were good.

I was asked whether I got my diphtheria, tetanus, and pertussis (whooping cough) vaccine recently. I said that I haven't had it since I was a kid.

Apparently, you are supposed to get it every ten years. Who knew? I got mine done. It's better safe than sorry.

I also got a leaflet from my doctor on the Human Papillomavirus (HPV) vaccine. Apparently, it's open to any adult who is sexually active where I live.

My guy and I talked about our health and partners that we've had when we first started dating.
"I have only had sex with one other person in my life," he admitted.
"Same here," I replied.
"That's good. We won't get any weird viruses," he stated.
"So, that's how you choose who you want to date. Attractive? Yes. No sexually transmitted diseases? Good. I'm horny. Let's go!"
He's sweet. I'm glad that we have been together, and we have been healthy and happy every since.

Tuesday, April 23, 2019

Productive, achy, congested me!

I had a productive workday on Monday. I did so much that my neck is stiff. Fun!

I also had a meeting with my manager. He asked if I felt okay. I did sound congested. I am hoping that I am not coming down with something.

I am tired. Maybe some rest will help.

Monday, April 22, 2019

Long weekend is over - looking at a busy workweek

The long weekend is nearly over. It has been great as far as my catching up on sleep.

This week will be busy. It is the last week for my two students before they head back to university. I have a colleague who has joined my team for over a month now. Although she is more competent than the one who was just let go, she does have some odd quirks.

Her punctuality needs work. She constantly says that she will get to work by 9:30 am, but it ends up getting worse towards the end of each workweek. Last Thursday, she came into my regularly weekly 9:30 am meeting at 10:10 am.

She also wanted to "hang out" with the rest of the team on Monday. We have some release work and wanted us to work in a room. She completely forgot what I had said last week, which was that we can't be doing all that. My students have a project that they have been working on with our manager. I am doing document migration to a new system. She has two releases to work on, with support form the rest of us.

She is considered a senior colleague as far as years of experience in the workforce. Yet, she doesn't appear to be senior. I did enjoy her odd e-mail that she had sent out to our team last week.
This weekend was short. I have a lot of stuff to do. I will work from home today.
Our manager wasn't thrilled with her response. I had a talk with her saying that she sounded like a high school student who had no clue how to write a decent e-mail and wasted time trying to clarify with our manager.

We'll see how things roll this week.

Sunday, April 21, 2019

Happy Easter and Passover!

To those who celebrate, happy Easter and Passover!

Things are good here. Today is my final day of my long weekend. I have enjoyed sleeping in.

Unfortunately, my NHL team, the Winnipeg Jets, got eliminated from its Stanley Cup run. Oh, well. There's always next year.

Saturday, April 20, 2019

Sleeping in is wonderful

My guy and I share a love for sleeping in on weekends. He likes sleeping in, whether he is on the road or at home.

I'm a bit different. When I am on the road, I like being out and about. I don't sleep in too late. I like to see what's around the area. He isn't that adventurous.

I was exhausted last night. I first slept for eight hours. I then took a nap later on in the day that ended up being 1.5 hours.

I enjoy my weekends. I remember being a grad student and not having that luxury of sleeping in. I can't imagine being a grad student again. I like my weekends to relax and do whatever I'd like, including sleeping.

It's the long Easter weekend. I have two more nights to sleep in. It's nice

Friday, April 19, 2019

Long weekend and sleep

It's the start of my long Easter weekend. I'm glad that it's here.

This week, although short, has been rough. I did tons of troubleshooting and it all worked out. I lost a colleague. Some colleagues that I have are tedious to talk and listen to.

I'm sleeping in. I'm looking forward to it.

Thursday, April 18, 2019

Last day for the incompetent employee

Wednesday was the day. The incompetent employee, who has been with us for over four months, was let go.

She was kind to send me an e-mail that it was her last day. She wants us to stay in touch. That's cool. She also let me know what she was working on. I wish she had done that more often while she was with us. Better late than never, as they say.

She's a sweet person. She just has learning issues and is not suitable for this position. My employer is going through cuts. Naturally, those who are not pulling their weight get let go first.

My manager says that I am safe. I have been on both sides of this fine coin. I tend to bounce back because my skill set is decent. I continue to learn to strengthen my skills.

I hope that she finds a job soon.

Wednesday, April 17, 2019

Hong Kong breakfast - so good!

I fasted for my bloodwork. All went well. I will wait patiently for the results.

Afterwards, I was hungry and needed breakfast. I visited a Hong Kong-style eatery. For just under $7, I got macaroni with luncheon meat in soup, two fried eggs, two sausages, buttered toast, Hong Kong milk tea, and hot water.

The macaroni and luncheon meat in soup reminded me of the food my mom made growing up. I never had it for breakfast until now. It was so filling.

This breakfast special is an all-day menu item. I may need to go back and get more. I can see myself hanging around that place when I am retired.

Tuesday, April 16, 2019

Mac mini is happy again as I prepare for bloodwork

My Mac mini has good and bad days. Yesterday was bad. Today, my Mac mini is operational and happy.

I know that it's time to get a new Mac mini. I just don't want to shell out for one. They aren't exactly cheap. I can always use my laptop, which works fine.

I'm currently fasting for bloodwork. I had a decent salad for dinner from Chipotle. I am oddly still full from it. However, I am planning where I want to get breakfast after I'm done with my bloodwork.

Monday, April 15, 2019

Dead Mac mini... again!

My Mac mini is dead again. I will need to use my MacBook Air for blogging. Right now, I'm on my phone as I continue troubleshooting.

Oh, what fun! It's likely a sign that I need to replace my Mac mini.

Sunday, April 14, 2019

Colleague, friend, and more

I have a colleague at work whom I interviewed, trained, and ended up befriending. She has recently been promoted to a team lead. I am also a team lead. There isn't exactly a cash incentive for this title. It's just a title given to us by our manager.

Anyway, she has never been a team lead and asked if I could give her pointers. She told me that she likes my work ethic and thinks that I'm the best one to help her out. She is sweet.

She is currently on vacation in the United States. I asked the other day whether she needed a drive to the airport. She did. She thanked me for offering, both when we spoke and while I drove her to the airport.

Just before we left work on Friday to head to the airport, she asked me whether I could keep her jewellery safe for her. She lives with a roommate and doesn't have a safe. She felt a bit awkward asking me, but I am comfortable keeping everything safe for her. I promised not to pawn anything!

It's nice that we trust each other. Our friendship is fairly new. She is like the sibling that I never had.

Saturday, April 13, 2019

My Mac is back, Jack!

Good news! My Mac mini works again.

I texted with an Apple support person last night, who asked me to reset my Mac mini's non-volatile random access memory (NVRAM) system settings. After my system tried restarting, it still got stuck at a grey status bar.

I had it running overnight. I turned off my computer in the morning. After work, I powered it back on and it magically booted up. Yay!

I'll off to bed. I was up so late last night troubleshooting that I'm exhausted and sleepy.

Friday, April 12, 2019

Mac mini issues after a software upgrade - again!

My Mac mini is dead. Yep, again.

I have High Sierra as its operating system. There was an update. I gave it a shot. All I get after the installation and countless reboots is a white screen with the Apple logo, and a grey status bar that does not budge.

I spent last night troubleshooting online with two different support guys. They were great, but I got disconnected from the text chat session.

I will be giving it a try later on tonight. Here's hoping that the connection doesn't die again.

Thursday, April 11, 2019

Sausage maker and an erect penis

I was watching a presentation on a shopping channel a few hours ago. I love my KitchenAid mixer and all the attachments that you can get for it.

The presentation was for a sausage maker. You can basically grind you meat, take the casing, and stuff your own sausages. I love this idea of making homemade sausages.

However, the woman demonstrating the whole thing was holding the sausage in one hand while stuffing the meat down the accessory. Her holding the sausage reminded me of my guy's erect penis.

It was such a weird, random thought. I have never gone into the supermarket thinking that I was looking at hard cocks. Tonight, however, I had that vision. Hmm.

Perhaps I simply miss my guy -- everything about him, including his hard member.

Wednesday, April 10, 2019

Seeing a woman being spanked makes me orgasm - nothing new!

It never fails. I get aroused immediately when I see a photo of a woman being spanked by a man. It happened yesterday in the middle of the day.

I was working from home and looked at my Twitter feed. Sure enough. I saw that photo and became instantly wet. What to do?

Well, there are perks to being at home. I played with myself and reached orgasm. Yes, it was good. I'm glad that I did. I then needed a nap!

Of course, it would have been perfect if my guy had been with me to make me orgasm. He's still slaving away over work as am I. 

I miss him. He feels the same way about me.

Tuesday, April 09, 2019

Pay raise - yay!

Good news! I got a raise. It's a miracle, considering how things are going at work.

My raise is 3% of my base salary, which is higher than the norm without our department. I am grateful. I haven't got a raise for the last two years.

I am looking forward to having some extra money. Naturally, it will go towards my debt.

Monday, April 08, 2019

Web site and blog design, along with reducing apps

I have briefly mentioned a side project that I am working on with a handful of people. The person behind this project, whom is my friend, said that he had set up the Web site. I have been writing and feeding him content.

Well, I asked him to show me the Web site. It is literally one long page of sample content. I told him a while back to take my content and paste it. He hasn't. Either he doesn't know how to or is expecting me to do it.

Now that I have access to looking at these files on the FTP site, I pointed out that having a one-page Web site where each section changes after a certain period is annoying. It's also not the best if you have a ton of content and have to scroll down the single page to see what you want.

Since we talked about having a blog and my contributing to it, which I obviously have experience in, I asked if we can use WordPress or something where we can have both Web page and blog content all in one. He wanted one site for our Web site and another one for the blog. What?

He knows that I have Web site design and maintenance experience. When we worked together at the same company over a decade ago, I handled the corporate Web site.

Apparently, his version of WordPress is just for blogging. I have asked him to provide me with the login information and I'll take it from there. I need to see what version he has installed.

I tend to end up leading certain tasks, mainly because I am competent and have a vision for how Web site design and usability go. I can also recognize when things aren't going as well as they should, such as the one-page Web site without any of my content. The site is his and it probably is difficult to have someone else take over what he is supposed to do.

He also has asked me to join WeChat, WhatsApp, and Slack. We do not need so many communication channels. I uninstalled WeChat. All our development chats are on Slack, so we don't need WhatsApp. He also has my phone number and we can text. Just pick one app and stick with it!

Anyway, that's my little update on the odd things happening with this project. Here's hoping that I can get both the blog and Web site working this week.

Sunday, April 07, 2019

Optimism with finances

Things are looking good with my finances. By the end of this month, I should have paid off a credit card that started my debt issues. It has been a lot of hard work to pay it off. I am glad that I'm nearly there.

I have a loan that should be paid off by late May or early June. It's difficult to predict when the last payment day is. I made extra payments, which is throwing off how the last day is being reported. I dislike how inflexible computer systems are.

Anyway, I estimate that sometime in June, I will have more income to build up my emergency and retirement savings, and continue paying off more of my existing debt such that I don't need to care about maxing out my credit cards.

I'm so happy with my progress.

Saturday, April 06, 2019

Returning to my alma mater - a familiar homecoming

I attended a handful of free learning sessions at my alma mater, where I got my undergraduate degree. It was a great night out.

I hadn't been there in years. Many of the buildings have had facelifts. Yet, I walked on campus as if time had stopped. It was highly familiar to me. Second nature.

It makes sense that it felt like home. I spent four years of my life there.

I sat in a lecture hall where one of the sessions took place. It was the same lecture hall where I attended my first summer math course. The long tables and pull-out chairs are long gone. Bolted, fold-up chairs with tiny desks that you can fold down are their replacements. As technology has advanced, so has the lectern with tons of ports and cables.

All my math courses that I took on this campus were in this building. I felt like I was an undergraduate student again. It felt comfortable and right after all these years.

Weird. In a cool way.

Friday, April 05, 2019

Job cuts and absence

Things look fairly bleak at work. There are job cuts. Everyone job seems to be at stake.

My manager and I had a good chat. He feels that I have nothing to worry about. I am not worried, but we got to this conversation after discussing the incompetent woman's departure in the near future.

Interestingly, her departure saves losing more folks in my department. She has not taken the news well, which is understandable. I have not seen her since Monday. She has taken the last couple of days off as she is under the weather. She has an appointment later today and decided to work from home.

I can't tell if she is truly sick or needs a mental break. I can only hope that she is okay.

Thursday, April 04, 2019

Breaking bad news too soon

My boss broke the news to me that my incompetent colleague will be let go. I'm not sure if I agree with his move to announce this information so early when he does not have an exact date for her departure.

I had mentioned this comment last Friday to him. The last thing we need is for her to be sad for a while. She apparently wept in front of him and perhaps stayed at work longer than usual the other day. She took Wednesday off as she wasn't feeling well.

She is a nice person. She is simply not a suitable fit for the job at hand. I expected her to take it bad. However, I was hoping that he would have a solid departure date, so that she can prepare. Perhaps he wants her to get a head start with a job search.

I looked at her resume. It says that she is a fast learner. However, when I asked her in my second interview with her (her third), she said that she is a slow learner. Ugh!

Hindsight is easier. I flagged the slow learner comment with my manager. He dismissed it. He now regrets it.

I am hoping that this entire mess is dealt with soon.

Wednesday, April 03, 2019

Dreamsicle dipped cone

I am a latecomer visiting Dairy Queen. I have visited this place twice in two days, which happens to be more times than the decade before this year.

I recently found out that DQ has a dreamsicle dipped cone. It is essentially vanilla soft serve that is dipped in orange goodness and handed to you on a cone. I love orange creamsicles, so this treat is the next best thing.

My local DQ is open till 23:00 every night. The hours of operation are deadly! I got home from a late dinner, felt like getting a small cone, and dropped by twenty minutes before closing. I am such a nutcase, but I loved my dreamsicle dipped cone.

Tuesday, April 02, 2019

Playing with myself and drifting off to sleep

I went to bed last night horny. I wanted to be spanked. I had to play with myself.

I do enjoy reaching orgasm and drifting off to sleep. I haven't done that in quite some time.

As much as I miss my guy pleasuring me these days, it was nice to go back and do it myself.

It felt good. I felt good.

Here's hoping for an upcoming spanking and fondling, courtesy of my guy.

Monday, April 01, 2019

Interview thoughts, work, and taxes

The student interviews on Friday went well. We have three extremely good candidates. My boss and I need to choose one of them for the upcoming work term.

Frankly, it would be great if we could ditch the incompetent employee that we currently have for any of these three. They are far more on the ball that she will ever be!

My weekend has flown by. I spent a couple of hours doing some work. It wasn't difficult, but it did take up some time.

I also completed filing tax returns for my parents. It's nice that I got everything over by the end of March. I am a month ahead of schedule. Miracles do happen now and again!

I hope everyone has a great week ahead!

Sunday, March 31, 2019

Backscratcher as a spanking implement

I love Dollar Tree. Naturally, the ones in the States are the original and I miss seeing the frozen food section among other fine items.

Canadian Dollar Tree stores do not have the same variety. However, I do love them.

On Saturday, I walked into a new one in the area that I was visiting. I saw these backscratchers.


I grew up having one hanging on the wall. My dad would use it to scratch his back.

I never thought about using it as a spanking implement. The more I think about it, the more aroused I get.

The downside is that the wood is rather thin. Knowing my guy and my track record, it will break across my sore backside when he uses it.

Still, I like the thought of being spanked with it across my bare butt.

Saturday, March 30, 2019

Long day, tired me, and more

One word to describe my day on Friday: long

One word to describe how I feel: tired

I'll be back with a longer post when I get more sleep.

Friday, March 29, 2019

Road trip and digital love notes

I'm doing a mini road trip in a few hours for work. I do so much prep work to make sure that I know what I am doing and whom I'm meeting. I'm ready to go.

My guy is doing well. He had a quiet birthday. We both miss each other. It was nice to exchange little messages during the day. We'll take love notes, whether digital or on paper. It makes being apart so much easier.

I'm off to bed to try and get some sleep.

Thursday, March 28, 2019

Having dinner with a friend and learning about another friend's passing

Last night, I had dinner with a dear friend. We have known each other since high school.

She let me know that a fellow friend in high school died a week before her 24th birthday. I was shocked and saddened.

I first knew her when we did summer school. We both took Cantonese for a couple of years. She was always nice to me.

Years later, in high school, we ended up in the same French class for two consecutive years. She was a year older than I was and I had skipped a grade in French.

She had bone cancer. I remember in high school that she walked with a cane for a year, but I never asked her about it. I just thought that she had broken her leg. My friend told me that she went through tons of cancer treatments. In the end, our friend decided to decline all treatments in the end and passed on.

I hope that she is resting in peace. It must have been so difficult for her family. She was so young and incredibly bright.

Wednesday, March 27, 2019

My guy's birthday and bingsu

It's my guy's birthday! He tends to work so hard on his special day that I need to remind him that it's actually his birthday.

He makes me happy. I love him to bits. Here's hoping that he has a great day.

Things are busy with me, but I'm good. I just came back from having bingsu (shaved ice with fruit and ice cream) for the first time. It was yummy and surprisingly not overly sweet.

Tuesday, March 26, 2019

Bonus pay + interviews = good news

I got a glimpse of how much my bonus pay will be before taxes are taken off. It's impressive! We'll see how much is left after the dust settles on Thursday.

There is a good chance that I will be doing a short road trip to interview prospective students for our next work term. It's exciting.

I'm off to bed. I'm exhausted with all this good news!

Monday, March 25, 2019

Productive weekend and WhatsApp for my laptop

Weekends blow by so quickly. Just like that, this weekend is over.

It was a productive weekend. I am doing some writing for a side business project. I got excited about it in the past, got distracted, and then lost some of that excitement. However, it all came back this weekend.

I am to provide content for a Web site. In past jobs that I held, I did both writing the content and putting the content up on the site. It was the case with all Web sites that I designed for me.

I don't control the Web site for this project, so I have to feed the content to a person. It's difficult to visualize how everything will fit. I asked him to post everything and then we can review the site.

The other reason why I lost interest is that most of my writing happens on a laptop. Our little group uses WhatsApp on our phones to chat. It was such a turnoff to provide the content through this app by copying this content from a document on Google Drive.

I managed to install the desktop version of WhatsApp and it made a world of difference. Yay!

Here's to another week.

Sunday, March 24, 2019

Missing my guy and cuddling sweet gifts

I miss my guy.

He's still working on training materials for a course that is rather new. He's training and tweaking it as he goes.

I miss talking to him. Holding his hand. Hearing about his day. Everything.

It's nice that I have a couple of stuffed plush toys, a purple sheep named Woolly and an owl named Owly, that are on my bed. I'm glad that I can cuddle them when I miss him.

Saturday, March 23, 2019

Clearance to get a new student at work

Good news! My department has been given the go-ahead signal to hire a student for the upcoming term. Yay!

Things are busy and odd with my team as of late. I love my students who are with me for another five weeks. The two regular employees on my team are nice, but odd.

Anyway, I'm off to bed. I'm that tired. Have a great weekend!

Friday, March 22, 2019

Hanging out with colleagues turned friends

I like how folks on my small team at work get along. It's to the point where there are five of us who want to hang out with one another on a weekend.

It's good that we are fostering friendship. We spend so much time at work and genuinely like one another. It's a natural progression.

They want to hang out in my neighbourhood. I think it's because I tend to find yummy places to eat.

It's nice.

Thursday, March 21, 2019

My students do not want to fight me, which is good

My students were chatting with me the other day. We were all in a jovial mood. Somehow, we got into this short conversation, talking about something.
"I disagree. We need to step out and fight it out," one of them joked.
"Um, no," said the other student.
"I can take you," the first student said. "I can beat everyone, except Cutiebootie. I don't want to mess with her."
I have smart students.

Wednesday, March 20, 2019

More aggravation with the incompetent colleague

The incompetent colleague continues to prove that she is not the brightest tool in the shed. I had had it with her on Monday.

On Friday, she asked a manager for information. He responded that same day. She asked the same question first thing on Monday morning, which made him respond by saying that she didn't need to ask so soon. Before all of that, I had indicated the same thing to her.

She cannot think for herself. She can't assess any situation. She just sees a task on a checklist and does it. Ugh!

What annoyed me even more was that she proceeded to ask the same manager for a different set of information. I had explained that I had all this information for the last two team meetings. It means that our entire team has all that information. She doesn't pay attention. She continues to show everyone that she cannot comprehend simple things.

And, she constantly talks without listening. I had a short fuse on Monday and told her to stop it.

She is to be let go. The problem is working at a company that has tons of procedural nonsense that needs to be done beforehand. It's at my manager's manager level. It likely means that it will take another month before she leaves the company.

I am surprised that I am not committed at a mental institution by now.

She also is indifferent when it comes to emotions. I've never met anyone like that. There is no compassion there, which is odd to me.

Tuesday, March 19, 2019

Wet screen protector

Last Friday, I had lunch with three colleagues, including one of my students. Several months ago, she liked my phone so much that she decided to upgrade to the same model. She is equally as enamoured over this phone as I am.

We sat next to each other at the restaurant. She admitted that it made her happy seeing my phone, as it reminds her of my phone.

She taught me something new. She went with a wet phone screen. It basically means that you apply the film by spraying a special solution. It makes applying it to the phone easier.

I have had a glass screen protector on it for a bit. The problem is that my phone is slightly curved, which means that the glass protector does not completely stay flush on the screen.

I noticed that my glass screen protector had a small crack in the left corner. I went online and bought a two-pack of film that you apply wet. It sounds like a sexual innuendo, but it's not!

I just applied it on my phone. Wow! I love how clean it sticks. I'm supposed to let it dry overnight to set. A day later, I am to use the phone case that came with the wet protectors. After five days, I can use my own case. Cool!

Monday, March 18, 2019

Tax return and financial health

On Sunday, I filed my tax return. It's nice to get it out of the way. I am roughly 1.5 months early filing it.

I am pleased with how things are going with paying off my debt and getting back on track. This year has some exciting changes:

  • Number of credit cards paid off: 2
  • Number of loans paid off: 1
I will also be focusing more on saving money. It's sad that I have had to abandon this practice for a while to pay off debt. It's important to have a decent reserve for emergencies. These days, it's my retirement savings and I don't want to dip into it.

I'll need to build up my retirement savings, which I am looking forward to. I'm optimistic and excited! It's nice to feel good about how far I have come.

Sunday, March 17, 2019

Green Earth closing all stores and my guy introducing me to this chain

I was sad to learn that Green Earth is closing all off its stores in Canada.

My guy introduced me to this store with cool items. He gave me a gift of an encased butterfly from this store fairly early in our relationship. I loved it. He didn't even know that I love butterflies until he gave me this present.

Since then, he has given me two other gifts from this store, which I absolutely love. He gave me a glass knot and a ceramic owl whose head bobbles. This chain has unique gifts that speak to me and I'll be sad to see it go.

The trend tends to be to for businesses to online rather than having physical stores. Competition is also an issue, with Amazon leading the way. Part of me still likes going to a store, and seeing and touching merchandise. It is a sign of the times.

Saturday, March 16, 2019

Robyn and pushy, drunk idiots

The other night, I went to see Robyn. It was a general admission concert.

I didn't realize that I had purchased a VIP ticket. I got early access into the venue to get a decent standing spot. I also got a commemorative bucket hat and laminated concert badge.

I got to the venue at 17:30. I was standing until 23:00, with a couple of bathroom breaks. My legs were not functioning well after the show. They felt like Jello.

For the most part, I am not a huge fan of general admission tickets. I'd sooner have a seat. You can dance and then take a break. I also like not spending most of the night up against other people.

Robyn was wonderful. She's a dynamic performer who sounds amazing. I had a wonderful time seeing her.

She is also incredibly strong. She started her career doing bubblegum-type music. She didn't want to fit in that mould and decided to break free. She has had her own say in her music ever since.

The downside to this concert was guys who ended up pushing and poking into me. It's one thing to brush someone by accident. When there are guys bumping into me often, I will push back. Sure, they are drunk, but it's pretty rude.

My legs are still sore from dancing and standing on my feet for over five hours. Thank goodness I don't go to such concerts often.

Friday, March 15, 2019

Concert and Jello legs

I just came back from a concert. I got a VIP ticket. I stood there for five hours. My legs feel like Jello.

More details about this fabulous show in a following post. I hope my legs come back to life in the morning!

Thursday, March 14, 2019

Happy Pi Day!

I'm a math nerd. So is my guy. Happy Pi Day!

Photo: timeAndDay.com
How do you celebrate this day? Perhaps having a slice of apple pie or pizza is fitting.

I just like how cool pi is. It's a mathematical constant. It goes on forever. It's neat.

Wednesday, March 13, 2019

Birthday gift question

When my birthday is coming up, my guy always asks me what I'd like as a gift. I decided to try his method out on him.

My guy's birthday is in a couple of weeks. Although I have a gift in mind, I decided to ask him what gift he'd like.
"Hey, your birthday is coming up. What would you like?" I asked him.
"I like whatever gift you give me. You're good at it," he said.
"That's nice of you to say. But, is there a gift that you really want?" I asked him.
"I have everything. I have you," he said.
He's sweet. It's one reason why I'm keeping him.

Tuesday, March 12, 2019

Bonus pay coming soon to my chequing account

On Monday, it was confirmed that my bonus pay will be deposited at the end of the month. I am excited!

I have a loan that will be completely paid off at either the end of May or early June. I am putting this bonus pay towards paying off a credit card. I will be in decent financial shape come the summer.

It's nice to look ahead and see how bright my financial situation will be. Yay!

Monday, March 11, 2019

Buttress Pillow

I have seen this pillow for a while. I'm not sure whether I was to put my head on a butt pillow called The Buttress Pillow, but it's a fun novelty item:


I like the aqua one. It's on sale right now, but it's pretty steep in price. Considering that I am working on paying off my debt, I'll have to pass and simply enjoy my guy's butt instead. That's not a bad deal.

Sunday, March 10, 2019

Cold and Daylight Saving Time

Last night, I woke up in the middle of the night cold. Ir's rare for me.

My guy typically needs more blankets. First, he likes rolling himself in them. Second, he gets cold faster than I do.

On the other hand, I tend to be warm to begin with. He calls me the furnace because I am that warm body-wise. It's rare for me to feel cold.

Luckily, I have some throws by my bed. I used one over my comforter and went back to sleep. I didn't stir. I woke up six hours later.

It's Daylight Saving Time soon. Note that Saving does not have a letter s at the end. The clocks go ahead by an hour. We'll see how that works with my biological clock!

Saturday, March 09, 2019

Friends, work, business, wings, and beer

Even though I was running on two hours of sleep on Thursday, I managed to stay awake and went out for dinner and drinks with two friends.

All three of us worked at the same company over a decade ago. They both left a year before I did. We are working on a business joint venture. I have the writing, social media, and Web site skills. One of my friends conceptualized this business model. The other friend has connections and is a smooth talker. So far, what I have been doing is exciting.

Getting back to dinner, between the three of us, we had forty chicken wings and two pitchers of Sapporo beer. I probably downed the most wings. I don't think that I drank the most beer. Thank goodness!

The good news is that I came back home and slept like a log. I simply need to remember not to drink a large strawberry black tea before I go to bed. Beer is okay.

Friday, March 08, 2019

Spoke too soon and had another horrible night of sleep

I have figured out why I haven't slept well recently. I consumed strawberry black tea just before I had muscle spasm issues in my right foot and ended up having a couple of sleepless nights this week.

On Thursday night, I went out to redeem a couple of coupons for a free movie and popcorn at the local movie theatre. On my way home, I stopped by my favourite bubble tea store to get a strawberry black tea.

My guess is that the black tea had so much caffeine that it kept me up longer than it typically does. I normally am okay consuming it before 11 pm. However, for the past couple of nights, I finished the drink well past midnight.

I got through my day on Friday pretty sleepy. I went out for dinner with a couple of friends, came home, and slept for an hour in front of the TV. Ah, good times!

Thursday, March 07, 2019

Slept like a log - yay!

Two nights ago, I slept for a grand total of 3.5 hours. That total was interrupted sleep. Last night, I slept like a log. Six hours later, I needed to go on yet another teleconference.

For a good minute, I wanted to skip it and sleep in. I then woke up and knew that I needed to get on with my day.

I felt incredibly rested. My muscle spasms are nearly gone. It's weird, but I am glad that this pain doesn't happen too often.

Wednesday, March 06, 2019

Foot and muscle pain sucks when you want to sleep

Now and again, I get muscle spasms in my right foot. It was pretty bad last night. I woke up at nearly 4 am to pain.

I can't recall how many ibuprofen pills I managed to take. It was strange, but I had a mini panic attack. My bedroom was getting hot, mainly because of my tossing and turning in bed along with the heating kicking in. I had to drink some water and eat a protein bar to ease things for me. I also took long breaths, which helped.

I didn't go back to bed, but I had a conference call at 7 am. I said hi at the beginning and actually fell asleep for nearly two hours. Hopefully, I wasn't called upon to say anything. This meeting call ended up being just under four hours.

Part of me wanted to call in sick. However, I took it easy working from home, as the muscle pain lasted all day, with it dying off right about now.

Some days are rough. Here's hoping that tomorrow will be much better.

Tuesday, March 05, 2019

Honesty about anxiety and depression at work

I had a decent talk with my newest addition to my team. One of my students and I were training her on Monday. At the end of the session, what I didn't expect was this woman sharing that she has been depressed and anxious for two years.

It hit home for me. I have been there. So has my guy.

The good news is that she is on medication, which has put her back on track. She feels good. It shows. She is funnier during our team meetings.

I was impressed that she trusted us to share what she has been going through. Add to that mix the fact that her past two team leads have said negative things about her with little justification and my manager asking her to submit weekly reports (she is the only person on our entire team doing this task) can add to that depression and anxiety.

I thanked her for sharing all this information. I told her that I'm happy that she is on my team. She seemed to be absorbing the information well. She also asked thoughtful, intelligent questions today. She has potential. It probably hasn't been noticed by others.

I'm optimistic. I let her know to leave the baggage and negative past work experiences behind her. We are working with a clean slate now. She appreciated it.

Monday, March 04, 2019

Press-on nails and affection

A year ago, a colleague got me into press-on nails. They have gel adhesive. They can also be filed down to size and shape. They typically last between one and two weeks.

I bought three packs and have only used them once. I decided to give them a try again. I like them.

I learned from my first experience that I need to start with short nails. This time was much better!

My guy looked at my nails. He liked them so much that he immediately grabbed my hand, looked at my hand and nails again, and gave my hand a loving squeeze.

I like that he loves my hands, with or without press-on nails.

Sunday, March 03, 2019

Incompetent colleague is on her way out

The incompetent colleague who has been with us for three months is on her way out the door.

My manager had a private meeting with me last Thursday. He has decided to let her go.

On the one hand, I am relieved for both my students and I who have been trying to help her learn. The problem is that she has issues with comprehension. None of us can help her there.

Everything needs to be written down for her to memorize the details. Explaining details seems to go in one ear and out the other.

Last Thursday, our manager asked her what an acronym stood for and what it meant in our team meeting. As expected, she nailed the former. She got the latter wrong. She has been doing this task since she first started. The question wasn't complex at all.

On a good note, I have another colleague who has joined our team. One of my students and I will be training her on Monday. None of them know that this incompetent colleague is heading out the door.

That's where the other hand comes in. She has a childlike mentality. She's a decent person and I feel sad that she will be losing her job. However, she is a burden to our entire team. We have all been pitching in to help her and the exercise has been futile.

I don't know when her final day will be. My guess is that it'll be at the end of this month.

Saturday, March 02, 2019

Losing colleagues due to no work

Work is getting dark. I learned on Friday that we have lost a good third of our department of writers due to a shortage of work.

It's sad. I am sad, as I trained the majority of them when they first joined the company. I do hope that they can find employment elsewhere.

It's sad that the news was delivered on a Friday, just before starting the weekend. When I got laid off a couple of times in my life, the news came down on Monday. I felt that it was a bit easier to digest, but not a whole lot.

I still feel that I am safe. I am the most competent person in my department. I am also the longest serving one in my group. All of that helps me out. We'll see for how long.

Friday, March 01, 2019

Change at work

It has been a week of change at work. To make an extremely long story short, a major project is coming to an end. It means that there are a ton of folks who are looking for projects to do.

On a good note, there is a new project. However, the company has far too many folks for it that layoffs are likely going to happen, which is sad.

I am fortunate to not be directly involved in this project that is going away. I am unaffected personally, but my team is impacted.

My boss had a talk with me on Thursday. He wants to let the newish incompetent woman go. There is now a colleague who is free to step in and replace her. We'll see if this change works out.

It's always sad to see a colleague go, but it's the best for everyone's mental health and sanity, including my own.

Thursday, February 28, 2019

Incompetent colleagues

I work with a few bad apples. Otherwise, things are good at work.

First, there is a person who is older than I am. He is also a team lead like I am. He is highly incompetent. He didn't do his job on a straightforward task. It was to the point where I actually knew more about what he was supposed to do than he did. I don't even work in that area these days. I have dabbled in it in the past.

He blamed getting the information "at the last minute." I corrected him by saying that communication wasn't there between he and his teammates. Additionally, if he is going to write something that he is unclear about, he needs to ask.

Then, there's my incompetent colleague whom is supposed to take over some of my job responsibilities and isn't even close. She was asked by someone to provide status in an e-mail initially. This woman then pinged her on our corporate instant messaging app. The newish incompetent colleague ignored responding to both methods, as I had expected.

I asked her to write back. She said that she would do so "with [my] exact wording." I told her that she needs to think for herself. I'll need to have yet another talk with her. She is unfit for this position.

Finally, there is this woman who pinged my incompetent colleague. She assumed that our work needed to be done today. I asked her politely whether the deadline had changed. My team completes our work at least a day before the deadline, which would make it Thursday and not her made-up deadline of Wednesday. Luckily, the manager who is in charge happens to know how my team ticks and he is actually our manager. He said that we could take our time and that the deadline was indeed Thursday.

Ah, the joys of dealing with people who need help doing their jobs at the most basic level.

Wednesday, February 27, 2019

More snow

It has been a rough winter. When I wake up on Wednesday morning, snow will begin to fall for the entire day.

Oh, joy! We are expecting anywhere between ten and fifteen centimetres of snow.

I work from home on Wednesdays, so I'm good staying home. I am looking forward to warmer weather, though.

Tuesday, February 26, 2019

Awards and a spanking over chiffon pants

I am back from the gala. The good news? I won two awards. It's such a humbling experience. I am ecstatic!

My outfit turned out nicely. I had a black sweater with gold buttons on the shoulders. My brown chiffon pants were comfy. The downside? It was gusting at around 40 km/h when I left home to drive down to the venue. I was freezing in my chiffon pants. After the event was over, the winds had died down and I was a happier camper.

I let my guy know about my awards.
"I'm so proud you you, sweetie," he said.
"Thanks! It means a lot," I replied.
"I'd love to caress your legs with those chiffon pants on. I bet they look good on you," he imagined.
"Let me know and I can wear them. You can spank me with them on or off, if you like," I replied.
"I love both options," he hinted.
Sweet!

Monday, February 25, 2019

My outfit and shoes for the gala

My working overtime on Saturday kind of worked out nicely. I get Monday off. Later on tonight, I will be heading to a formal gala.

I have my outfit. It consists of a nice black sweater with gold buttons on the shoulders. It brings a nice, classy touch. It's also a comfortable sweater. I have never worn this one before, but I did get a grey one at the same time and have worn it for years.

My brown palazzo pants are still a go. I like the contrast of colours, rather than dressing all in black and feeling like I am at a funeral.

I am going with black socks and a pair of brown suede lace-up shoes. I have a pair of black leather dress shoes with chunky heels. The downside is that the temperature is supposed to dip down to -11°C. My brown suede shoes will keep me warm. The black ones will not. We also have snow and ice on the ground. Warmth and traction trump everything here. I don't care if my footwear may look odd to some. I need my feet to stay warm and I need to be safe.

I'm ready. Here's hoping that being a finalist turns into some sort of acknowledgement of the work that I did last year.

Sunday, February 24, 2019

Overtime and contact

I worked overtime on Saturday. I'm tired.

I noticed that my guy was online. I tried contacting him on our work instant messaging app. My guess is that he was so into whatever he was doing workwise on his laptop that he didn't see any of my messages.

Oh, well. There's always tomorrow.

I did manage to finish my work. I now have Sunday and Monday off. Yay!

I'm exhausted. I'm off to bed.

Saturday, February 23, 2019

Work keeps me busy and my guy's love gets me through crazy times

Work is keeping me busy. I'm working this weekend.

When things get this hectic, I long to see my guy. He is away on business, equally as busy as I am.

I miss his kisses, hugs, and cuddles. I miss caressing his head and waking up next to him.

All of these thoughts are comforting. His love and support get me through this weird work period. I am thankful that I am grounded.

Friday, February 22, 2019

Introducing me to a new employee

Thursday was a busy day at work. I could write about tons of small, but significant details. I will need to spread it out.

Our team has a new software developer. Sharky, who is the manager of this team, made us all huddle around the new employee and introduced him to us, one team member at a time.

When it came down to me, I got this introduction:
"This is Cutiebootie. She is our writer. She is demanding, but she's pretty good," he said.
I looked at him.
"Just joking," he said to me.
"That's the nicest thing that you have ever said to me!" I exclaimed.
Our entire team laugh. My job is done.

Thursday, February 21, 2019

Shopping and decluttering thoughts

I like that my guy and I have been in the same shopping frame of mind for a while. We don't crave shopping at stores like we used to. We are content with what we have. We go shopping for things that we need.

He likes that I tend to buy practical items. I do like pretty things, too. It's okay to splurge now and again. It's a deathtrap when you do it daily and end up amassing a ton of stuff that you truly don't need or use.

I was in the groove decluttering last month. It has stopped since I went on and returned from vacation. However, it came back the other day when I looked at purchases that I had made in 2013 and wondered why I needed all these items.

My decluttering kick is slowly coming back. I'm glad.

Wednesday, February 20, 2019

What top goes well with palazzo pants for a black tie gala?

On Tuesday, I was asked to be a part of a black tie gala. The main reason? I am a finalist for at least one award.

Here's the weird thing. Apparently, I'm not eligible for this award if I don't go. It's odd to me. I would like to think that it was worded this way because it would look weird to win the award fair and square, and not be in attendance.

Anyway, there is never a guarantee to win anything. I should just go, have free food and booze, and be thankful to have been nominated. However, I have a good feeling that my hard work all last year has paid off.

The bigger concern is what to wear. I don't go to such formal events.

I have two items of clothing that are chiffon and look fancy: a black skirt and a pair of dark brown palazzo pants.

The black skirt is too large on me. I have lost weight since I last wore it a good eight years ago. The palazzo pants fit perfectly and I like how it flows on me.

Here's my question: What top to I wear with palazzo pants? A nice, slightly fitted black sweater? A cap-sleeved sweater with a blouse underneath? I haven't got a clue.

It's the main reason why I didn't jump on being a part of this event. I am not fancy. I like wearing jeans and a t-shirt. I like staying at home, in my pajamas, snacking and drinking pop.

It's only for a couple of hours. I will be okay.

Tuesday, February 19, 2019

Hacked information in the wrong hands and my cell phone reported lost by someone

Here's a follow-up to my post on how a few personal details can get into the wrong hands and how worried the guy is about his actions.

A few months ago, my Starbucks account was compromised. I was at the car dealership, waiting for my car to be done with servicing. I logged into my Starbucks app and noticed two transactions that were foreign to me. One happened in Miami. The other in New York within five minutes. There was no way that I was in two states in that period, especially when I was still in Canada.

I called Starbucks support and the woman was helpful. I didn't like when she asked which card it had come from. I have Starbucks cards in both the United States and Canada. Sure enough, it came from a U.S. card. The balance wasn't huge. The person purchased a drink and some food. Nevertheless, Starbucks reimbursed the funds and cancelled that card for me.

My Starbucks account had my phone number there. If this guy logged on and used that card, he likely got my cell phone number. I have since removed my cell phone number from the account, as it's far from being mandatory.

As for tracking me with check-ins on Yelp and Twitter, he has too much time on his hands. It was a good wakeup call for me. I stopped the Twitter check-in from Yelp. I tried it out on Saturday and all was good.

I don't go down without a fight. I'm interesting that way, as I like to gain a bit of information about this person.

On my Twitter account, which was still public, I replied to my own tweet. I addressed the guy who stalked me. I said that he has been reported. He was messing with the wrong person. I have both voice recordings with his swearing and threats thanks to an app that I have. I recommended that he back off, as he was messing with the wrong person.

It is all true. I lucked out and bought an app that tells you whether phone numbers are safe to pick up. You can also report numbers that are considered nuisances. It also records all calls for protection and potential evidence down the road.

He got scared. This part of the story is still speculation, though.

On early Monday morning, just after I had posted my last post, I got an e-mail alert acknowledging that I had reported my phone lost. Really? It wasn't me.

I got that issue resolved online. As a security measure, I have a PIN associated with my cell phone provider on my account. This person reported my phone lost through the phone, which the person at my provider confirmed.

The woman with my service provider said that it is likely that the person entered his phone number incorrectly when reporting his phone stolen over the phone. Part of me hopes so. The other part of me thinks that this guy panicked and thinks that reporting my phone lost will help slow things down. Revenge? Perhaps. It's dumb, though.

The other thing is that my phone number, if you searched for the first seven digits, comes out being with a different cell phone provider. He would have to do a ton of digging to figure out that it's with my current provider. So, it leads me to believe that my number was reported by accident. I can't prove anything here, though.

Ah, the joys of having information in the wrong hands in a digital age.

Currently, my Twitter account is private. We'll see if that helps, too. I have learned so much this episode. Hopefully, we have reached its end.

Monday, February 18, 2019

Compatibility when waking up in the morning

When my guy and I were in the States, his phone would wake us both up. He had to go to work and he set his alarm for 7 am.

We are different. I hear an alarm and I get up automatically. He hears an alarm and hits the snooze button a few times.

The first time I heard his alarm on this trip, I woke up. I went into my usual wakey-wakey mode with him.
"Wakey wakey!" I said to him.
"I want to snooze," he said.
"How many times?" I asked him.
"Four times," he replied.
"That's a lot," I noted.
When his phone's alarm when off the fourth time, I put his phone on his head.
"You're mean. We aren't compatible," he whined.
"Do you want to break up?" I asked him.
"No. You're such a morning person and I'm not," he whined.
When it was finally 7:48 am, he woke up, got out of bed, and got on with his day. He's so boyish.

We suggested that he set his alarm to 7:30 am. He was much better after that.

Of course, on the weekend, he forgot to turn off his alarm.
"Alarm, sweetie," I said to him, which prompted him to turn it off.
I do miss seeing him snooze all day. He loves his sleep so much. I love sleep, too. I just am not a snoozer like he is.

Sunday, February 17, 2019

Optimistic outlook on my finances

It's a long weekend for folks here. Let me tell you that it's much needed.

I am optimistic about my finances this year. A loan that I have had for nearly five years ago will be paid off at either the end of May or early June. This loan was to consolidate a large amount of debt. It frees up money to put towards other debt, which won't be a whole lot when I get there.

The toughest part is getting through the next three months. Last year, my debt situation required that I dip into my retirement savings. For years, I did not touch it. I had no choice last year. You get dinged for taking this money out before you retire, which will be reflected in my income tax return. My thinking is that I had to deal with being behind with my debt payments that it was worth the risk taking money out of my retirement savings.

With the loan payments being over in early summer, I will be able to put money back into my retirement savings and build it up. This plan makes me happy.

I have come a long way. It will be nice to get back to having my finances back in check.

Saturday, February 16, 2019

Learning from checking in on apps and broadcasting my location on social media

I had something odd happen to me yesterday. Some may consider it scary. I have a feeling that I have put some of the puzzle pieces together.

After work, I went to Starbucks to get a beverage. The baristas there were nice. I ordered my drink through the app like I usually do, went through the drive-thru, got my drink, and drove home.

I normally check in using my Yelp app. Some people are afraid of having their location shown. For me, I used to be in this camp. My thought is that checking and then leaving is okay. I'm gone that any stacker can't catch up to you.

Well, here's the odd part. I must have been twenty minutes away. I got a call from this Starbucks location. It was the cafe's phone number on my phone. It was one call after the other for a total of four calls. No message was left.

It then shifted to a completely different number. When the third call came in, I was waiting at yet another drive-thru. I answered the call and stayed silent.

The guy on the other end knew my first name and my phone number. He was wondering why I wasn't answering. Well, I was at a drive-thru deciding on what I wanted to order. He eventually hung up and called back for a fourth time.

I had placed my order. I picked up and said hi. He proceeded to say that I had checked in on Yelp and asked, "Why the f*ck do you check in so many times?" I decided to hang up on him. I didn't like the swearing and I didn't understand why he was so upset.

I have an app on my phone that not only blocks these calls, but I can report them to a database and add my comments. I did just that.

I see a couple of things that contributed to this incident:
  • When I checked in on my Yelp app, it also broadcasts that check-in on Twitter. The guy saw my tweet on Twitter. I looked at the interactions and found one hit in my statistics. Only my friends on Yelp know my check-ins and they are decent people who would not harass me.
  • As for getting my phone number, my Starbucks app was compromised a few months back. My phone number was likely obtained from that incident.
Put my tweet and my phone number together, and you have someone out there who doesn't have a life.

I also feel that he has a software application where he can change the phone number that ultimately gets displayed on your phone when you receive a call. It seems rather clean that he used the Starbucks number to call me four times, and then used another one with a different area code exactly four times in the same rapid succession.

When he swore at me, it was quiet in the background. He obviously was not at Starbucks. You cannot be in two different cities in the Greater Toronto Area within seconds.

When I was in Dallas, I disabled my check-ins being broadcast to Twitter. I don't know what possessed me to put it back on, but I have decided to permanently stop it.

It's quite the lesson. The good news is that I have set up these precautions and will see if it makes a difference.

Friday, February 15, 2019

Thinking alike with the same e-card

My guy and I were apart this Valentine's Day. We don't treat this day as being terribly important. We both agree that love isn't just celebrated on one particular day in the year. Rather, it's spread across it.

The funny thing this year is that we both sent the same e-card to each other. We know each other so well and have the same tastes in puns that it's not surprising.

Here is part of mine that I received from him:

I like that he called me good girl. It's rare, but I will take it!

Thursday, February 14, 2019

New percentage calculation at work

I have a love for numbers. My guy does, too. We are math nerds.

I recently had to do an online course at work. You need to pass a final exam at the end of this course to get credit for enduring it. The course is roughly eight hours in length. Doing a final exam is painful.

You need 90% to pass the test. I ended up with exactly that percentage... or so I thought.

When I got to the very end of the test, it said that I got 9 out of 10 questions answered correctly. The percentage calculated was 89.88%. What?!

I asked the person responsible for creating the course a question on how this percentage is calculated. She admitted that something was odd. I managed to contact the training support group to get credited for taking this course.

I have never seen a weird percentage calculation like what I got. I told my guy this issue and he laughed.
"It doesn't surprise me that you'd be outraged about the calculation. It's what I love about you," he reminded me.
"You're sweet. You'd react the same way," I replied.
"That's true. We love math."
We do.

Wednesday, February 13, 2019

Issues with the new employee continue

I haven't talked about the new employee for a bit. She is definitely the most challenging person to understand. This post explores a lot of my thoughts that I have shared with various folks for the past month.

We have a new authoring tool that most of our team has been gearing up to move to. I have said to this person that she is not ready. She doesn't have the basics down with our current authoring tool. My team consisting of this woman and two students are staying on our current tool.

She is stubborn and adamant to learn the new tool. Her reasoning, according to what she told my two students, is that there isn't a relationship between the two authoring tools. Um, that's because you don't understand the existing tool well enough to see that your transition to the new one will be difficult if you don't have a decent foundation on how things work.

Before the Christmas holidays, I had instructions for my two students to look at the training materials on the new tool. I specifically told the new employee that she wasn't ready and to focus on learning our current tool. What does she do? She watched one of the videos on the new tool.

She has raised a number of red flags in my eyes. The first one occurred during her third interview (it was my second one with her) where she said that she was a "slow learner." I brought that up to my manager, but he dismissed it. He thought that the extra time she spends after work to learn would make her catch up.

I was right. Hiring a slow learning in an IT field is bad.

She has been with the company for over two months. She cannot grasp simple things like knowing that the entire team is away on an all-employee meeting, which means that the team will not respond to her e-mails. She couldn't attend because she had a medical appointment that day and worked from home. Yet, she constantly sent out e-mails and even texted one of my students over work when she got to this offsite meeting that was not urgent. She does not take into consideration whether folks are physically able to respond to her e-mails. She is only thinking about herself.

Most of our department has to do a test that grants you access to this new tool, but for the production (live) environment. I said to this new employee that her main focus is to get up to speed with work so that she takes over one of my documentation software release duties. Her deadline is later than everyone else's to do this test. My manager made the same comment in a departmental meeting last Thursday.

What does she do? The following day, she takes this test. She hasn't gone through all the training materials or videos. She just did the test over and over again (you select either one answer or some combination) until she passed it.

I was annoyed. I told her so on Monday. The fact that she just asked for access to the test environment and was absolutely afraid to even log on was a joke. Now, she has access to a production environment where she could mess up everything with her current "knowledge" that she allegedly proved to possess on this test.

I told her she put the cart before the horse.. How meaningful are the answers that she memorized to ultimately pass this test? Not all that meaningful at this stage.

She doesn't listen. She has difficulty comprehending simple concepts. Yet, she does whatever she feels like.

She pointed out that she's not a linear learner. Yep, it shows. She is all over the map to the point where none of us truly knows what she is thinking. She has no sound judgment about much.

I had a talk with my manager on Monday night. I told him that my students and I have been drilling her with exercises and explaining concepts in multiple different ways. It is the plan that he first devised. It doesn't appear to be helping. I levelled with him and said that she wasn't a fit for this job. He nodded.

The problem is that the company is under a hiring freeze. We let her go and I am back to doing everything. I personally don't want her becoming a permanent employee at this company. She is not pulling her weight. I don't always want to be saving the day because we can't get another employee to fill the void.

On Tuesday, my manager wrote an e-mail to her and copied me. It was a snowday. He basically reinforced that she needs to work on understanding concepts and her job. All of us have noticed that she is great at memorizing, but does not understand what she is spewing out. She doesn't have critical thinking skills. She can't think for herself.

I had this chat with my guy when we were in the States. He agrees that it's probably better to get rid of her than having her pull down everyone.

The current plan is to have my students work with her on simulating a documentation release. We are assessing how she will do within the next two weeks. I have a feeling that she will be at the level that she is currently at -- slow and incompetent.

She's a nice person. She's just not suitable for this job.