I still don't have anything to write about that pertains to spanking. I don't have anyone to spank or administer one on me. Frankly, spanking hasn't been on my mind as much as it used to be.
Maybe it's the result of a not-so-great breakup and having the ex return wanting sex, but not a relationship. I thought that he was special and sweet. I was wrong.
My mom's memory is fading away. Today, she was watching some program on TV and managed to pause it.
I asked her why there wasn't any sound coming from the TV. She first said that the entire neighbourhood was experiencing a power outage. I let her know that there was a picture on the screen, so there was power. She then said that there was nothing on TV.
I found the remote and pressed the play button. Programming resumed.
It's weird how my mom will make excuses when asked a question, as if she's covering up something. I think it's more that she doesn't remember and she has to conjure up reasons that make sense to her. Her reasoning makes no sense to others.
I've seen this with other people when they get old. I don't think it's a personal fault. It's something about how the brain works. It's like there's a kind of circuit that doesn't function correctly.
ReplyDeleteI worry about what will happen when I get older and my brain loses function. My mother is in memory care, and it is painful to talk with her. She can't form any coherent sentences. But I see her on Facetime each week, because I want her to know that I love her.
I hope you will find someone for your life who allows you to form an intimate relationship. It's just hard to find the right person, especially when you have a particular need, like spanking, that is uncommon. Modern life has many more variables than life had only several decades ago. The more variables there are, the harder it is to find someone who fits your life well.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts, RP.
DeleteI also have that same concern that I may also lose brain function the way my mom has and continues to go down this road. She used to have a great memory and I see it deteriorating. I feel like I may go through the same path -- not knowing where I am and not recognizing people here and there.
As for finding the right person, I appreciate your kind words. I'm still not ready, so forming a relationship with someone isn't a top priority.
My mother is in a memory care facility, so I'm familiar with what you're going through. As we get older, the brain can actually shrink, and those synapses that worked so perfectly in the past can start to misfire or not connect at all. With my mother, it's her short term memory that suffers. She can tell you the address of the house she grew up in, but she can wind up asking you the same question several times in the course of one phone conversation. It can be very hard to deal with, and I wish you the best.
ReplyDeleteDr. Ken,
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Hi, Dr. Ken. Thanks for sharing what you are going through. I appreciate it and how what your mom is going through parallels what my mom is experiencing.
DeleteMy mom can also easily bring up memories from her past. She can't remember whether she visited the washroom a minute ago. It is tough.
I hope that you are doing well. Under the circumstances, I'm hanging in there.
My mother had similar difficulties with her memory and her powers (or lack thereof) of reasoning. It seems to be a common feature of aging and decline, but that doesn't make it any easier to deal with.
ReplyDeleteGood luck.
Hermione
I appreciate your sharing what your mom is going through with me. It is part of aging. It is tough seeing her memory deteriorate, especially her short-term memory.
DeleteThanks and I hope that you're doing well.
I feel you re: the mum situation. My mum has dementia and it started out with weird outbursts of emotion, paranoia, fear etc. But she also had strange excuses / reasons for whenever I pointed out that something wasn't "right". Like, hey what's the newspapers doing on the kitchen counter? and her response would be something really out there. Or why she was sitting in the living room with the windows all closed. - This one worried me - the monkey's trying to get in, she said.
ReplyDeletejust watch out for her behaviour changes and see if you can get her to a memory clinic or a geriatrician to get her checked out. Sometimes it can be caused by physiological triggers such as - and this surprised me too - a UTI or constipation. Yep. Constipation.
Best to see a healthcare specialist. Early intervention can help the development of cognitive decline. Good luck, and I'm available on email if u want to chat.
(And go ahead and change your blog focus. mine's all food and regular life now... )
Thanks for your helpful suggestions and for sharing your mum's situation with me.
DeleteBecause my mom isn't as expressive as she used to be, I will see weird outbursts from here. She'll get angry and yell. At first, I couldn't figure it out. She'll refuse to take a shower. It's more out of fear that she has forgotten how to go up the stairs to shower, so it comes across in anger with a bunch of excuses to not take a shower.
I see that when it comes to YouTube stopping. She doesn't know how to press the play button. Instead, she'll say that the electricity is out.
I'll see if I can get her to a specialist for her memory. I appreciate the suggestion.
I'm also glad that changing my blog's purpose is cool. It's a bit of a shift, but I'd write a lot more if I share what's going on in my life that's spanking-free.